Pumpkin Patch

Woke up after only 3 hours of sleep feeling very crafty.  Gabe with waking up 5 times during the night last night (no nap, poopie diaper, and maybe bad dreams?) I was worried he was going to be Mr. Attitude when he woke up. However I found him singing and dancing in his pack-n-play.  Sweet!!! 

Off to Pumpkin Patch we went to take pictures.  I dressed him up in his Halloween costume and his Pumpkin Patch outfit (sooo cute I tell ya!!).  However I gave him his golf club (plastic) in the car and driving down the interstate Gabe decided the window would be his golf club.  Which resulted in my yelling to stop...........

Yeah I scared him so bad that he jumped and immediate tears came.  I felt sooo bad for yelling but I seriously didn't want to have to explain to Grandma what happened to her car window!!  So needless to say this put Gabriel in a foul mood for pictures.

So I will post pictures soon and pray when I upload them I will get at least two good pictures!!  Gabriel wanted NO part of saying cheese, looking cute, or sitting with all the pumpkins.  But I was proud of myself for letting him do his thing and I just stood back and snapped like a crazy women. 

My husband asked me when I will realize that our son just doesn't like the camera right now....umm NEVER!! ;)

11 weeks...........

Today I would be 11 weeks pregnant.  Six days after turning 29, I miscarried our second child.  It has only been four days since that horrible trip to the Emergency Room and yet it feels like it was just 2 hours ago.  I woke up and cried this morning.  Cried for myself and other women who have had to experience the gut wrenching pain of losing a child.  I know I was only 10 and a half weeks pregnant when we lost Baby May 2, but I can still close my eyes and see his/her heartbeat on the U/S screen. 

I have been going back and forth about whether I want to share or not.  Share because there are other women out there feeling the same lose that I am.  To share because I feel like it will help me heal.  Ease the dreams I have been having of feeling a baby kick in my belly knowing there is no baby there.  Or looking at PJ's in JCPenny and for a moment can't breathe because I see the cutest little girl Santa Clause PJ's and wonder if I have lost my only chance to have a little girl.

So I will Blog about how for 10 and a Half weeks I have been the happiest, most scared, and sickest I have ever been in my life.  But mostly importantly, I will Blog to share how through the tears, dark clouds, and deep sorrow, I find myself walking closer with God which I have been praying for for a very long time now..............

You are amazing...........

Something huge has happened to our family which I am not ready to Blog about.  However through the tears, hugs, and many prayers, my husband pulled me into his arms and said he was thankful of me. Even called me amazing.  Said best thing in his life is me as his wife.  Held my hand and said he wouldn't change a thing about his life because he is beyond Blessed.  Then he laughed and said "Babe, I am so thankful for the hard, long (naps and bedtime total to be about 10days), exhausting, but NEVER gave up or gave in sleep training you did with Gabriel".

I laughed (beyond needed laugh) and asked why?  He then asked me if I realized that it has been a week since Gabriel has slept in his bed and he has had only one meltdown.  Not only has he been in not one, not two, but THREE new beds, he sleeps like a champ and naps. 

I smiled and said yes babe I realize this.  Laughed some more and said I am thankful mom picked up that phone during those naps and bedtimes where I wanted to give in.  I am also thankful for a husband who trusted me enough to let me stick with Sleep Training for 10 days.  The book was worth every 20 bucks I spent!!!

So tonight we are going out on a much needed date and I think he is going to buy me a new pair of boots to truly show his appreciation...wink wink!

Birthday, Road Trip, Home, Round Two

Yep I have turned 29.  The 14th came and went very uneventful and first time in 29 years I didn't want to celebrate.  Just too much going on but I still had a great day!! Woke up in a hotel room with Mickey Mouse on the TV.  Gabriel handed me two cards while Nathan sang happy birthday.  My boys are silly and love them dearly!!  Slowly rolled out of bed to make the last leg of our trip to Mississippi. 

Made it to MS late afternoon and stayed two night with FIL.  Took a couple of pictures of the grandkids together but mostly laughed all night.  My niece and nephew are great kids and they welcomed Gabriel with open arms.  He was very quiet the first night and think it was due to all the new people.  Last time he was in MS he was 4 months old.  The May side of the family need to travel and visit us *wink wink*

Saturday we made it to our final destination.....home...Home Sweet Home.  Louisiana.  We webcam with my parents often so Gabriel knows their faces.  Instantly took to mom, unpacked the car, and settled in for the next 4 and half weeks. 

Round Two of training has begun.  Nathan took off Sunday for Flight School while Gabriel and I stay here to visit with family and friends.  We will get to see him later in November for his Graduation and see my daddy pin Nathan's wings on!!! 

Miss my Ohio family and the Fall temperatures!!!!  However, being home has been way over due and a much needed mental break.  Can't wait till my dad and brother get back from the hunting trip.  Gabriel keeps asking for Papa!  Off for now....must save Gabriel from my parent's Boxer.  We call her licky-lick......

Mickey Mouse

Blogging will come back soon.....promise.  I am going through some health issues right now that 1-not ready to share yet 2-taking all of my energy and 3-nothing serious but still has me worried.

However, I had to blog this funny story.  I realized I was out of diapers for said 21 month old kid.  Pulled myself together just enough to make a Target run.  How I have missed shopping at Target!  Haven't been in a MONTH....bank account has more money too hehehe.

Okay sorry, back to the point.  So after picking up the diapers we detoured to the DVD section.  I am feeling guilty for making Gabriel go to a sitter even though my health requires it right now.   We have never really allowed Gabe to watch cartoons or TV but since hubs is gone and my feet are up, Disney's Play House is on...a lot!  So tonight I decided to get him another Mickey Mouse DVD.

Browsing the DVD section, told Gabriel to look for Mickey and as soon as he spots "Mouse" let me know.  Next thing I know he lets out this high pitched scream....not one but two very high pitch long screams.  It scared the bejeezus out of me!!!  Made this grandparent age couple jump out of their skin.  Why the scream?!?!?!  Gabriel found Mickey.....man there is never a dull moment with my son. 

Target run ended with diapers, Mickey Mouse DVD, and a book for me.  After the Mouse scream of 2010 I might have to change his birthday theme.........

MIA

Yes I love to Blog but lately I have been finding myself lazy...oh so very lazy.  However, the May family has been having fun living life, taking pictures, and experiencing TDY's.  So, Come What May will be back up running again...soon...I hope.  This reminds me that I have over three weeks of pictures to upload to our Shutterfly account and 2 Netflicks movies to watch.  Guess I know what I need to do this week too.

Tuesday.....What a Glorius Day!!

I have this friend whom I have come to admire, respect, and pray, that I will have her strength, Faith, and love that she has.  Ms. B started out as a Facebook friend.  Met her when I went to Bunko one night and instantly felt this love and positive calmness about her.  Only at Bunko would I talk to her or would sometimes comment on her FB page.  Then I took this Bible Study over the summer (which I have yet to Blog about...very bad I know) and Ms. B came into the class.  She sat next to me and said hi my FB friend!!  Instantly we started laughing and chatting.  Then I heard (via text messaging and FB) that Ms. B had delivered her precious baby boy way, way too early.  My heart and soul immediately went out to her, baby boy, and the family. 

I knew we were only FB friends but I wanted to give her support anyway that I could.  Since then, I have been going to the hospitals to visit with Ms. B and Baby Boy.  I tell my hubs I will be home soon and he just smiles.  So far my visits have turned from "soon" into 2-3 hour visits.  Just me and Ms. B talking and getting to know each other.  Me listening to Ms. B. talk about baby boy and all the miracles he is surpassing, her unwavering Faith, her two other children at home, her husband, and how she manages every day life.  All the while her baby boy is in the NICU fighting for his life.  My intentions to visit with Ms. B were to show my support and give a shoulder or ear.  However these past few months, it has been she who is actually helping me. 

Ms. B has shown me, that with God, that there really is nothing you can't handle.  That yes things happen we don't understand nor comprehend, but we just have to believe good will come out of them.  Ms. B is truly always smiling, one of the strongest women I know, and I LOVE her humor. 

Some how I find myself always having tears of joy when I am visiting with her and baby boy.  Like tonight, she sang this BEAUTIFUL song to her daughter over the phone because it was bedtime.  I just lost it.  Ms. B. has this voice of what I bet angels sound like.  When she started to sing it was like she poured every breathe she had in her into the song.  There was this undesricable calmness to make sure her daughter knew how much mommy loved and wished she was home to tuck her in!

I have zero doubt in my mind that God is truly watching over Ms B and her family.  So my fellow blog readers, I ask you to pray for the following - their house sells, baby boy continues to grow strong and healthy, that baby boy will be released out of the NICU so they can finally be a family of 5 under one roof, and lastly, that Ms. B continues to have strength, knowledge, and love.  Strength to know she is doing the best she can and she is succeeding.  Knowledge that her Faith is being touched by others.  Love...that she feels love by her family and friends. 

This world truly is a better place because of Ms. B.  I know I am a better to person because of our friendship!