Steppin on the Scale....

and I am SO scared to see the numbers. I am FAT. I am very disappointed in letting myself get like this. No one to blame but myself. So in 10 minutes (12:00), I am stepping on the scale, writing it down, and then will do my daily at least 30 minutes of activities. My first two things I want to try are Jillian's 30 Day Shred. Several friends have used this to jump start their work outs and a friend is letting me borrow the DVD. After that, I will borrow my husband's new phone (Verizon's Droid) and start the Couch-2-Five-K program. He has an app on his phone for it. For some reason I pay out the wawzoo for a BlackBerry and they don't carry the C25K app!!!!

Reason for the weight lose....I CAN'T stand the way I look! I am 5'10 and curvy but now I am 5'10 and Fat.....I used to have beautiful legs and skinny ankles but I look at them now and see cankles...yes cankles!!! Reason #2 - I can't sleep and I am moody. Two things that have been linked to being overweight. Reason #3 - Even though I am not ready to have another baby I will be soon and won't be able to get pregnant because I am fat. Yes I know you can get pregnant no matter what size you are but there are too many complications and diseases you can pass on to your baby if you are not healthy. Being fat is not healthy! Reason #4 I want to be proud of how I look, feel, and want to teach my child and future children how important being healthy is. Heck America is the fattest country on this planet and I don't want to be part of that number any more!!!

Wish me luck for I now have 2 minutes to get on that scale. If you hear a blood curling scream...it is just me seeing the numbers for the first time in a long time!